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Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Rubber band tales

It happened for the second time today at the gym.

As usual, I was running late for my RPM class fondly dubbed by me as the "Cycle your blues away (or at least attempt to) class". I searched frantically through my laptop bagpack, my gym back, overturned all the side pockets, hidden pockets at least three times...and I couldn't find a single rubber band or anything remotely string-like to tie my hair!

Haih. For a moment I seriously considered if I should snip off the waist-ties of my office dress as a hair-tie substitute.

Ah, the woes of having long hair.

The solution? I put on the thickest skin I owned and very nicely and humbly asked another girl whose locker was next to mine if she could spare me a simple rubber band to tie my hair so I wouldn't have to be the crazy girl in the bike class with hair plastered to her back in sweat. She looked surprised, and maybe thought my request was a little strange, but she very nicely obliged. In fact, on the two occasions, (yes, I put on a thick skin on two separate occasions) the girls I asked very nicely obliged.

Hence I conclude, sometimes it pays to not bother what people think and ask for what you need.

Alrighty, that's my annecdote for the day. Time to try to get some sleep.

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Sunday, September 27, 2009

Insomniac

Tonight is one of those nights when sleep simply cannot come to me.

My room light has been blinking in slow-mo Morse Code fashion, switched on and off by a restless me. I know not why I suffer this insomnia because I'm actually very tired especially mentally and emotionally.

I am sorry for neglecting my blog. I feel that much has happened in between my last post and now but yet, also so little. In many aspects, I think I've been walking around in circles. A question that was asked in the animated movie Coraline, struck a note with me, "How do you walk away from something, and then come towards it?" Walk around the world.
A pretty neat answer, I thought. That would explain how I seem to be right where I started all along- at the very beginning. Neither gaining nor losing. Not a bad thing, you might say. But in all honestly, I think this inertia eats at the very core of my being. Like if I ignore it long enough, one day I will wake up and I will no longer exist. Or at least, the me I am today will cease to be.

I do not know what is the point of this post. I do not also know what I can do to get myself out of this trying rut.

But the worst thing is, I'm old enough to know, nobody can help me figure this out.

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Tuesday, May 12, 2009

MB today, maybe not tomorrow

I hardly, if ever blog about politics and am not about to begin today.

But this latest circus in my homestate of Perak has me going what the %&@# x 10 everytime I so much so as browse The Star online these past two days and I just need to say this: "WHAT THE HECK HAPPENED TO OUR DEMOCRACY????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Politics is a murky cesspool and I think politicians are charlartans, the lot of them. But for goodness sake, please can you all not be so blatantly stupid and unjust. Makes me feel like tearing the heads off the idiots making the innane statements in the newspapers since they evidently, are not using their brains anyway. Better feed them to some hungry dogs.

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Monday, May 11, 2009

A spoonful of Sugar

Pray please share with me if you know, the secret to swallowing the bitter pill of generic happiness.

It seems to some, the easiest thing in the world. Pop pill, sugar water, chug chug, swallow swallow. Plastered smiles etched on digital photograhs uploaded in droves. Conversations that echo of contriviality, shallowness and emptiness.

I wonder, is it me? Or is it them, selling themselves to what might be, the sneakiest, most successful marketing campaign ever- the marketing of the notion of what happiness is.

Oh, I'm smarter, I see through it...or do I really?

More and more I realize, that the spurious notion of happiness that has sold a thousand sappy movies, that we learnt was the ultimate goal in life in the less than wonderful schools we (I, at least) went to and read in fluff magazines and novels, might not be the ultimate destination.

Some, surely some are meant to walk the path less tread, for if not, wouldn't the glorious sights on those heartachingly gorgeous, but desolate paths, have been created in vain?

Who is to say that simply implying to deviate from this Godliest of Godly notions of Nirvana, when the mood hits me to offhand spout my regular smart-alecky glib comments, is, I've been told time and again in many times and many ways, being negative?

Truth be told, I'd like to be compliant. I'm a good girl, I am. I'd like to be able to take my bitter pill once daily deliciously laced with a sweet nectar wine, the flavour of ripe peaches on the vine, please!

Chug, chug, swallow, swallow pleasantly and live forever till the end of my time in this apocryphal bubble of intoxication.

But, if it were my destiny to live entrapped in a chimera, I'd like to know beforehand please. That's all I ask, thankyouverymuch.

Chug, chug, swallow, swallow. Life just became sweeter.

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Saturday, April 18, 2009

You'll always be my Baby

You are the best thing that I've ever called my own.

Despite you being my most expensive investment to date, I believe that every cent I've ever spent on you has been worth it through and through.

Although I've hurt you in the past, and in so many different ways too, you've never stopped being there for me- through the brightest of sunny days and the most violent of thunderstorms.

We've gone places together- Ipoh, Penang, Cameron Highlands where we've cruised through journeys on smooth-flowing highways and excursions through narrow, winding roads with sharp almost 90 degree bends where we were blind to what was lurking around the corner and we've survived, simply by the inherent trust that we have in each other's abilities.

I've learnt to handle you so well, and we fit together seemlessly, as if somewhere in our past life, we were a single entity. You were an extension of me, and I of you.

When I'm apart from you, I miss you and long for you to be at my side. I can't imagine how I lived without you in my life before, and I couldn't imagine living a life without you now.

You are my independence, my most cherished posession and my pride.

Without you, I am crippled and life ceases to have meaning.

After 3 years (come May 20, 2009) of being together, I would like to say thank you my Baby, for everything! I love you so much!

My Baby car with a fresh new coat of paint, looking almost brand new! I imagine her to be smilling and basking in all her shining glory :D

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Thursday, April 16, 2009

Searching her soul tonight

Oasis Concert, Singapore, 5-Apr-2009

From the vantage point, the people milling in the crowd looked like tiny dolls.

And yet, despite knowing that it would only be more painful to, she still furtively scanned the tiny faces in a hopeful and yet futile effort, heartachingly searching for her magical sappy movie moment.

You know, the moment of cheesy unreality when, the eyes of two star-crossed lovers meet across the crowd of millions of people and all time seems to stand still as they sprint towards each other in slow motion?

Tracherous eyes, they follow the whims of the heart of hearts, imprinted forever with fragments of familiar faces, favourite places and empty spaces, that echo, pining for the fullness it once knew. Forever, it's a long time.

Raindrops running down the windowpane, mirror the Tracks of My Tears. Like hundreds of watery tadpoles each with an infinite wriggling tail.

Rainbow in the rain, North-South Highway, 6-Apr-2009


But hope, hope is the ash from which the phoenix rises shimmeringly, in a spectrum of golden splendour.

Everyday now, she walks the familiar places with increasing serenity.

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Sunday, April 12, 2009

Back in KL

I just came back to KL today after a week's break in Ipoh where I could not blog at all because each time I tried to log on to Blogger, the Internet connection would freeze and die on me. *sad face* Grrr...I had so much I wanted to write about. I'll back-blog soon. :D

Meanwhile, I should sleep early tonight, because tomorrow I start my new job! I'm kinda nervous actually. Wish me luck!!!!!!!

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